June 17, 2015

36 weeks

wow sweet bee you are now 36 old, officially 'full term' which means you can come at any time! - i'd love to have you in my arms sooner rather than later but i know that God has the perfect day for you to come - i've been having contractions on and off for a while now hopefully they are doing something - it's been fun being able to tell exactly what body part is jabbing me here and there, your little knee can pack a punch! - we are getting so excited to kiss your sweet cheeks - daddy tells me at night that he is just can't wait any more -  micah makes sure you come with us in the car when we go places, he doesn't want you left behind! thankfully you are pretty easy to tote around with us - we can't wait to meet you and get to know you - you are so loved and so perfect just the way you are 

June 12, 2015

life lately

lately life seems to be flying by. it might have something to do with trying to take in everything we can now that the weather is so great, or maybe it's because i'm always on my toes waddling after a toddler, or it could be a combo of the two. micah is just so much fun right now, his personality is bursting and it's so fun discovering more about him every day. i am trying to treasure these last few weeks we have together just the two of us during the day while daddy is at work. some days can be so long but i always look for the bright moments during the day and try to stash those in the memory bank instead of the moments that i lost my cool because the 10th tantrum of the day was due to not ripping the toilet paper the correct way.

micah has decided that he wants to use the potty now and so he does. i am so proud of my little man and how he just decided one day that he wanted to wear 'daddy' underwear. there is still the odd accident here and there but over all he is doing an amazing job.

micah is a big help when it comes to watering the garden. he drag the hose all over and waters everything... everything! his slide gets a good washing almost daily because there is 'yucky poop' from the birds, the car also gets a good watering on a regular basis.he does also water the flowers and weeds and lawn. i also find myself getting sprayed regularly.

micah loves colouring, being at the shop, driving his bike, playing in his sand/water table, going for walks, hugging and kissing the baby, pretending to be a baby, blowing bubbles, barkley (the neighbours dog), and just being goofy! it is so much fun being his mom. i can't wait to see him in the role of big brother. i think he is going to do an amazing job!

i guess life lately is all about micah,

June 9, 2015

35 weeks

it's hard to believe that in 5 weeks, give or take,  we will be holding you in our arms. where has the time gone? - the other day i drank a bunch of water and you started squirming around and we could hear the water sloshing around, Micah thought it was pretty funny and is always asking if there is 'waka waka' in there with you - this past week you had momma wondering if you were going to make an early appearance with two straight days of contractions, thankfully you decided to stay in there a little bit longer, probably because you heard your brother throwing a tantrum and decided to stay were it was a bit more peaceful - you sure do love radishes and ice just like your brother did - you get the hiccups several times a day and it's so fun to watch my belly pop up and down and know exactly where your chest is - we sure are wondering what you are going to look like, will you look like your brother or have your very own look? - either way we can't wait to kiss those sweet cheeks and nose - sweet little bee, you are so so loved! 

when will bee come? is a bee a boy or girl? how much will bee weigh?
get your guesses in and see what others are guessing too! 

June 3, 2015

on my heart + lots of pictures

I've been trying to figure out the right time or if there is a right time to get this off my heart. This pregnancy has been so different in so many ways. There are the physical ways it's been different with slightly less morning sickness, totally different cravings, feeling much better over all than I did with Micah. However, this pregnancy has been very different emotionally too. With Micah I was ecstatic, I felt like the whole world should stop moving and acknowledge that I was going to have a baby, a real squirmy squishy baby. With Micah I also had intense, crippling fear of losing him, I couldn't sleep for days on end because of the fear.

This time around I have been surrounded by loss and heartache as this baby grows in my womb. I have had friends loss there littles early on in pregnancy after years of trying, and I have friends who found out that there sweet girl wouldn't live long after she was born. This week we are saying see you later to that sweet girl. My heart is absolutely broken! So many emotions run through my heart and mind. I feel the kicks of our babe and wonder why the Lord has allowed such pain and heartache on our friends. It has been very difficult to have excitement for the life growing inside me and grieve simultaneously for our friends that have lost so much. The guilt is overwhelming.

Rejoice with those who rejoice, and mourn with those who mourn. - Romans 12:15

Do not fear, for I am with you; Do not anxiously look about you, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, surely I will help you, Surely I will uphold you with my righteous right hand. - Isaiah 41:10

Come to Me, all who are weary and heavy-laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For My yoke is easy and My burden is light. - Matthew 11:28-30